Is anybody besides me here a Christian? I'm having a kind of unsettling day. My pastor's last day was today and I haven't really felt at home in that congregation for some time. George is kind of an agnostic. I am feeling quite cut off at the moment.

Aw, that is too bad about your Pastor leaving and you feeling cut-off

I am Catholic. I have been struggling with my faith for the last several years. There has been so much death and tragedy in my family, neighborhood, and family friends that it is overwhelming. It has left me with a lot of questions and feeling lost many times. Sometimes I just cannot figure out why so many of these tragic accidents and cancer, and of course my father's ordeal, had to happen. All of the people involved in these accidents were very religious and devoted. Well, except my 4 month old little cousin killed in a car accident along with his 2 year old cousin and his mom. That baby was born with a heart problem that needed surgery and spent the first 3 months of his life at the hospital, only to be killed in a car crash weeks after coming home.

So this crisis of faith is so unsettling. I feel for you because it is tough losing that part of your life. I stopped going to church after my beloved uncle was killed in a car accident on a Sunday morning on his way home from staying for a special blessing at church. I just never went back after that.

When we are at my Dad's memorial service next Saturday it will be my first mass since my uncle's funeral. I am hoping it helps me come to grips with some things. But I am doubtful.

I figure I live my life as a descent and good person. I guess that is my Christianity for right now.

I hope you can find somebody to help you with what you are going through. Are there any other churches you could go to? Perhaps someone could recommend a church that would be better suited to your needs?

Let us know how it goes.